Aug 26, 2004
*~I Wanna love you FOREVER~*
I have a fat lip cuz marisa kicked me in the face again lol ohhh well ahh im excited for tommarow!!! hehe i was really pissed off today at cheer for no reason. it was so weird like i didn't wanna even be there and then i was talking to brooke and shane on the phone and i got her introuble cuz she heard what i said oops we were talking about weird stuff so she got upset. She isn't mad ne more thats good!
You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it to
I know you do
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees
^ i wanna love you forever i like that song!
Im gunna go to sleep now cya all tommarow if ur frm school!
xoxo
*~Katie~*
Posted at 10:54 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Aug 23, 2004
SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER!
Suicide is not the answer
Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electricute himself. He lived. But both his arms are gone.
What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal.
What about pills? Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go.
What about a gun? Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too.
But... Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it.
Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your wife? Your son?
The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.
Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now.
You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.
You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? -Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left.
Remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
***IF YOU'RE READING THIS, PLEASE STEAL IT AND PUT IT IN YOUR JOURNAL TOO.***
Posted at 06:38 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Aug 21, 2004
save a horse, ride a cowboy!
heyyy its like 12:15 i just got up like 15 minutes ago cuz i'm so tired lol! i wanna go shopping today maybe someone will go with me...hmmmm idk. But yea there is nothing to say cuz i'm bored.
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whoa thats cool haha i remember in like 6th grade that was me, alisha, and shannon's thing lol alien search
I'm soooo excited cuz on sunday i'm going to this cheer camp thing at my gym for like 7 hours and its with this like really good college team frm like tenesse or something like that. Yeaaa and they are gunna make us good haha! Buts its like all day i'm gunna be so tired! welll thats all i have to say for now...........
**Katie**
Posted at 01:26 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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WELL alot of stuff has happened since like thursday or whenever i last wrote. But omg the all night was soo much fun!! haha shane is the funniest person ever i <3 him! BROOKE IS AWESOME AND SO IS ANDY! lol yep but ne ways after that i went to brooke's house and we like slept until like 12:00. Then we went to my house and went swimming and we did this stunt thing it was awesome!!! haha and then brooke had this urge to make something so we made brownies.. yummmm! they were really good lol! Then she went home and i was sad :(. I forget what i did on sunday but it prolly wasn't important. BUT OH THE DRAMA!!! Matt is pissed at me and so is Caleb and i'm really sad it makes me wanna die. Shane asked me out on wednesday thanks to kaila lol :). But i thought matt cheated on me but now i dont think he did i think he was just trying to make me jelous since we broke up but yeeeaaa. UGH i hate ILPS they make me mad the teachers are gay and told my parents about this thing i didn't turn in cuz i forgot about it so me and brooke couldn't go to the mall and i was extra sad more then normal and i started crying at ilps and it was embaressing as heck. I only cry alot when my mom says she is gunna make me quit cheer i'm so scared i'm gunna get really fat if i quit! jk no i just really love cheer and its one thing that can't hate me no matter how much i screw up!
wow i'm up late not really but for me i am up late haha but umm i think my dad is coming..... oh wait no he isn't i can't sleep there is too much to think about! I hate this i miss talking to Matt sooo much this sucks really really baaaddd. oh well
I MISS STEPH ABBY AND ZANDER!!! and everyone else! lol haha
XoXoXo
**Katie**
miltonthemailman (11:11:55 PM): IM GUNNA JUMP OUT SHAWNS 2ND STORY WINDOW
miltonthemailman (11:13:07 PM): CUZ OF YOU
^ THAT IS SO MEAN
Posted at 12:35 am by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Aug 12, 2004
heyyy! i haven't written in like a week lol. I have cheer for like 3 hours tonight i won't get home until like 9:15. AHh i soooo can't wait until friday :) :) :) me, brooke, andy and shane are going to this thing at brooke's church its gunna be so much fun lol! Yesterday at cheer we started learning our routine it's really cool already lol! omg and i have to do a back handspring tuck its gunna be CRAZY lol! i'm excited!!! OH and i don't have to get my wisdom teeth pulled next week cuz i'm getting it done in january i'm so happy i was like so freakin nervous lol! My mom said that she could change it since i have like 7 hours of stunting on the sunday after that and i wouldn't be able to go so now i can and i HAPPY :)! wow i'm gunna be really really tired that day dang 7 hours of cheer thats the most in my life haha. Well i'm gunna go get ready for cheer talk to ya when i get back
xoxo
**Katie**
***Leave me a message plzzz***
Posted at 06:29 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Aug 4, 2004
Me and Brooke Love Ryan!!
I haven't written in here for along time oops! lol any ways i can't believe i'm in 8th grade its so weird well i can believe it but omgsh i'm getting old! haha aren't we all though? That was gay i'm so tired i got back frm cheer like 30 minutes ago. It was really tiring but my group is the best haha we rock lol! Well on saturday it was preatty fun i went to the movies with everyone again and we saw spider man 2 it is such a good movie wait i think i already wrote bout this.... ya i did! Well i didn't go to brookes on saturday cuz she was at the mall all day and didn't get back till like 10:30 but thats okay! Cuz on sunday we hung out like the whole day first we went to her church! omgsh i love her church it was so much fun and i saw cecily again :)! Then we went to her gym and worked out for a while. But, her mom couldn't pick us up cuz she went to the mall so we had to take the bus! BUT IT NEVER CAME AHHH so we got lost well i did she knew where she was going though! it was preatty funny cuz i was like saying really stupid stuff because i was in the heat for to long and like we were calling people to come and pick us up but they never came lol! So finally we had to walk to her aunts house which was like 2 miles! well maybe 1 but it was along ways because brooke didn't know where she was so we walked the whole neighborhood and it was ACROSS THE STREET! we were like dying it was preatty funny! any ways then we went to her house and like talked on aim and then we went to the park with Sam. That was fun but then i had to leave at like 5:30 and we were supposed to go back to her house at like 5:00 but we were like really late and she got introuble cuz i was stupid i feel bad. But ya so now it is wednesday and its almost the weekend again thank goodness! idk wat i'm gunna do matt is like gone somewhere w/ luke and adam in some hotel place... who knows? But ya if they talk to you they are acting stupid they really aren't like that i'm sry!!!!!
Spanish was fun today i guess shane and brian are really funny oh ya and shawn w. too! haha we were coping that one kid it was preatty funny! I love social studies its like the best class ever hehe mr conti is cool too... well thats enough bout school lol
OMG and i have a question ya its random but how can some one love someone they have never even seen in person somebody plleeeeasssee telll me cuz i'm so confused if you know what the heck i am talking bout if not i will tell you but ya leave me a message thingy if you have an answer haha
well... i g2g do my hw and go to sleep
Love ya,
*~Katie~*
Posted at 10:56 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Jul 31, 2004
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
-she will be loved!
Posted at 07:35 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Hey!! Ok the last time i wrote i was like sick or something but now i'm better lol!! I'm soo glad that it is finally the weekend i'm so tired frm school this week! It was preatty good i guess its not the same as last year though oh well. Soo last night i went to marisa's party and we stayed but until like forever! well i slept like most of the time but they kept like yelling and screaming haha! I got home at like 1:00 and then i went to the movies and we saw spider man 2!! it was really really good!!! omgsh but it was really really scary!! I think that i'm gunna go to brookes house later but idk when
xoxo
**Katie**
Posted at 07:24 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Jul 28, 2004
Ahhh its like 3:30 in the morning and i can't freakin sleep!!!!!!!!!! my stomach hurts sooo bad i've been up all night. I'm really sad no one is on to talk to! I feel like throwing up right now idk why i'm even writing in this. Its not like people actually care lol. Idk if i'm going to school i want to but i'm to afraid of like falling asleep in social studies or something haha. Ahh oh no then i hope i can go to cheer well idk i'm soo freakin tired right now Well i'm gunna go bye
*****Katie******
Posted at 04:34 am by Xo_KATIE_oX
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Jul 24, 2004
Hey! Oops i haven't written in this in a long time lol okay on the 22 it was my birthday!! soo now i'm 14 yay! me, mer, austyn, matt, and adam went to the mall it was fun! then on friday i went to sunsplash with caleb, shane, andy, kylie, alyssa, jenny, austin, and danielle. Then today i went to the movies with steph, mer, austyn, lindz, peter, and chris and we saw I-Robot or whatever it was preatty good its been like forever since i've seen a really good movie i liked lol oh well... Ahh i can't believe that school is starting!!! wow this summer went by REALLY fast! Oh well i'm kinda glad that i'm going back so i can see all my friends and stuff like that. But it really sucks that like matt and adam don't have to go to school i'm gunna miss them! Well thats all for now
<3 ya,
**Katie**
Posted at 11:09 pm by Xo_KATIE_oX
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